Monday, 23 July 2007
It's coming back to haunt me.. the shadow of my past.. a regret I thought I'd long forgotten.. it haunts me every moment of the day, and when the sky turns dark, it's all the worse.. did I really think I could confront it better at night.. dream ... factually it's impossible.. realisticly it's beyond me..

Just makes me wonder why it keeps coming back to haunt me.. and well.. i'm just trying to believe, but sometimes it makes it all the harder.. sigh.. finished reading harry potter today.. i must say it was the best book I've ever read in the harry potter series, well thought out, very systematic and a hell of a kick for an ending. If any, i must say they will have a huge problem trying to turn this book into a movie because they will not be able to remove any part of the book without destroying the true meaning of it.. so prepare for an 8 hour movie, or the greatest disappointment of a book-turned-movie ever.

Well.. there's school tomorrow.. sigh, sometimes it makes me wonder.. if I should just face the reality of what reality really is.. I should quit lying to myself. Wasting everybody's time and effort.. I wish I was void of all human feelings, of all human emotions.. I wish I had the power of true conviction, yeah, right.. I wish that i had no life to live, nobody to let down,and nobody to attempt to blame for my failures except myself.. it is my fault.. in the end, everything is of my own conviction and not anybody elses..

Why not skip one step ahead, and spare everybody the agony...? Yeah.. I know I'm useless already.. ain't no point to this anymore..


monster kealur wabbit ||| 02:28

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