Wednesday, 15 August 2007
Sigh... really quite screwed up lately... I dunno... my tolerance for certain people seems to be dipping.. much like how the oceanic plate subducts to the less dense continental place.. I just don't understand why and how some people think the way they do nowadays.. but maybe it makes me see the true side of some people.. or maybe it's the blunt realities of life. I don't know. Or maybe I just think too much. Whatever it is, I think I'm going to join floorball next sem... something that I'm at least decent at, I prefer watersports really, but this isn't the time and place I think..

Well maybe it's time for me to strive for something way more realistic.. Something that doesn't make people scoff and tell me to dream on.. Sigh.. I hate the constant inconsistencies of life, and I find that sometimes it's taking it's toll on me. I mean, it's also the constant inconsistencies of life that make people behave the way they do sometimes.. right? Ah well.. Shan't ponder too much over this kind of stuff.. Maybe it's not worth my time.. Gah.. Getting quite fed up with myself lately. Can't seem to make myself study no matter what I do. As far as I'm concerned, I know I can't study in Changi Airport. Tried and failed consistently.. At least one thing is being consistent.. Ah. whatever... Looking forward to at least scraping past my papers.. at least to bring me to the next sem.. Looking forward to joining floorball next sem... Need to keep my adrenaline flowing, I can't live like a lifeless soul.. it's too ... well I forgot the word to describe it..

Maybe sometimes, I'm better off chasing my dreams alone.. Was that how life was meant to be? You use them, then you lose them? I'm not that kind of person. Close friends mean alot to me, and well.. let's just say I want to keep it that way. And I realised lately that I'm quite a softie.. ouch.. hurts my outer shell.. Maybe I'm like a turtle.. sigh.. why can't people in the world just be straightforward about stuff? It seems that almost everybody is enjoying going around the bush lately, real switch off. Oh well.. here's me signing out of life for a few hours..

Should I go to school tomorrow? We'll see if i wake up..


monster kealur wabbit ||| 00:31

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